Excerpts of Erynn

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It’s not bragging if it’s true March 19, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — Erynn Sprouse @ 6:10 pm

I am a strong and powerful woman, imbued with strength from my Creator to do the tasks given me.

I— Me. I’m talking about me. Not to say this isn’t true for others also (more on this in a sec), but I’m talking about me. It’s easy to see others as strong, powerful, etc… sometimes not so easy to see ME this way.

Am— Not “will be.” Not “was at one time.” Am. Present tense. Right now, right here. Am.

A— It’s not just me. This statement is a truth (though not universally acknowledged ;o) ) that applies to all women. There may be an exception, but I can’t think of one.

Strong— You know what? I am. I’m strong. My body is stronger than I think it is. This is one of the many valuable things I learned in Tae Kwon Do. My body can do things I never thought it could. But physical strength isn’t the only way I’m strong. I have a strong will. Once I’ve set my mind, there’s no dissuading me. Ask my mom; she’ll tell you. I have a strong character. I’ve worked hard to train myself to match the character of the Bible and to a large extent, I’ve succeeded. Not totally. I’m a work in progress, but what’s there is rock solid.

And— strength alone isn’t enough… and it isn’t all I have.

Powerful— Power is much like strength, but it also includes the permission necessary to use the strength. Strength without the opportunity, platform or permission to use it is pretty much worthless. But I have the power too.

Woman— I am woman, hear me roar. There’s a chemistry related joke that goes something like this… “what is a female? A male fortified with iron for strength and magnetism.” (Get it? Fe is the periodic symbol for iron… iron is strong and magnetic… add “fe” to “male” and you get “female”… haha, right? Okay… moving on…) I don’t know about that, but what I do know is that I have special jobs given to me as a woman in God’s kingdom. Call it outdated, outmoded, out-of-fashion, whatever you want, but I call it out-of-the-Bible. I’m my husband’s helpmate (Genesis 2:18). I’m the manager of my home (1 Timothy 5:14, Titus 2:5). I’m the mother of my children. All that means a whole host of things that I don’t need to get into here. It’s an honor to be a woman. I don’t have to be bigger or better or anything more than a man because I’m equal… different… but equal for sure (Galatians 3:28). There’s no need to prove it because it’s just plain true… as true as 1+1=2.

Imbued with— According to the dictionary on my computer, “imbue” means to “inspire or permeate with a feeling or quality.” And that’s it. I’m not only inspired with the strength, but I’m permeated with the strength. Permeated… as in filled up… soaked thru like a sponge swimming in the sink. And this isn’t something that comes from within. It comes from without. In this case, from God Himself… but more on that in a moment.

Strength— (pretty much covered this one already, but just for kicks, here’s a bit more…) From my computer’s dictionary again…. Strength is “the quality or state of being strong, in particular

  • physical power and energy…
  • the emotional or mental qualities necessary in dealing with situations or events that are distressing or difficult…”
    • I love my kids–no one would question that–but being a mommy to four boys aged six and under is distressing and difficult. Of course, it’s also incredibly rewarding and fun, but it is also a huge challenge… and I have the necessary qualities to deal with that and all the situations that come with it.
  • “the capacity of an object or substance to withstand great force or pressure…”
    • There is definitely great force and pressure to do things differently than what I see as fit according to the standard I bear which is Christ’s. But I have been given strength. I have the capacity and substance to withstand those forces and pressures.
  • “the influence or power possessed by a person, organization, or country…”
    • Influence… power… I have it! When it comes to the things I need to do, I’ve got what it takes.
  • “the potency, intensity, or speed of a force or natural agency”
    • There’s a movie from 1999 called “Forces of Nature” with Sandra Bullock and Ben Affleck.The ads for the movie show Bullock with Affleck by the lapels practically bowling him over. Her hair is flying and the implication (to me, anyway) is that she is as unstoppable as a force of nature. I love the idea of me grabbing my tasks by the lapels and conquering as fully as a force of nature, bowling them over with the strength and power that’s given by God.

From— The strength, the power– these things aren’t from within me. I know… another unpopular thing to say in this day and age. In our society, we’re supposed to believe that everything we need comes from within and all we need to do is clear out the mental clutter, etc. and access that internal power, that internal engine or the god within or whatever you want to call it. That’s not really what the Bible says, though. It says that all good things come from God (James 1:17). And this power, this strength? That’s a good thing.

My— I owned God as mine just over 12 years ago when I put Christ on in baptism. I decided then that He would be the one in charge and I would be the one listening. Now, that doesn’t mean I haven’t failed to listen, but He hasn’t failed and I haven’t quit getting back up.

Creator— Yep. I’m one of those crazy, cracked-up Christians who thinks that God actually meant what He said in Genesis 1-2 when it talks about Him creating the world in six days and resting on the seventh. He created me and He did it in His image. That means I’m special, precious, valuable. He made me just the way He wanted me. Sometimes I don’t know why He didn’t make my nose a bit smaller or put arches in my feet, but He didn’t and I assume He had His reasons.

To do— He didn’t just give me the gifts He gave for no reason. He gave them so that I could DO… not just be. I’m not just a pretty flower sitting on a shelf. I have purpose and meaning and tasks… a role to play, a part to do.

Tasks–Jobs. Duties. Charges. Missions. Responsibilities. I have things to do! There are specific things I have been given to do.

Given— Again, these tasks have come from God. I have some that I take on myself that aren’t strictly necessary. Sometimes it’s a challenge to sort out which jobs are given by God (and therefore necessary) from those that I’ve taken on myself. 1 Corinthians 10:13 essentially tells us that we’re not given anything more than we can bear, so when things seem unbearable, maybe it’s time to sit down and sort out who’s handing out the tasks. I know for sure that I have what it takes to do the tasks given to me… but I may not have the time/energy/strength/power to do the ones I take on myself… then again, I may.

Me— Just because something needs to get done doesn’t mean it’s MY job. It may be someone else’s job and I have to fight the urge to do all the jobs given to everyone else. I can’t do theirs and mine. In true codependent fashion, I love to take on everyone else’s job… but then I look around and see that mine aren’t getting done. I must focus on the tasks given me and then if time/energy/strength/power allows, I can help others and do a bit to lighten their burdens.

This little affirmation has helped me out more than a few times. When things feel overwhelming, I remind myself that I am a strong and powerful woman, imbued with strength from my Creator do to the tasks given me. Sometimes I even yell it out loud in the kitchen… and my kids look at me like I’m crazy… and then they start yelling things too… and we all laugh… and I feel better for the laughter, but mostly for the reminder that…

I am a strong and powerful woman, imbued with strength from my Creator to do the tasks given me.

BTW, it actually is still bragging even when it’s true… but I like the title anyway. :o)


One Response to “It’s not bragging if it’s true”

  1. SuSu Says:

    Yes. Iron Butterfly — looks all soft and squishy on the outside; definitely Fe on the inside. For the days when it is overwhelming just remember that everything does not have to get done at once — or even the same day. Deev Breaply (breathe deeply) and take it one thing at a time. Love you.

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